21 Day Yoga Challenge: Day 10 – My Shavasana Didn’t Go So Well
Yoga Challenge
(c)Melanie Parsh, 2013
I get up early and make it to the 6:30am Silent Moksha class. I have avoided this silent class because I felt like I really needed the teacher’s voice helping me do better yoga. I realized yesterday that I know the poses well enough to get through this class. I also have a medical test tomorrow and I am not supposed to exercise. This has provided a fair bit of brain fodder. Should I cancel the test? Should I miss a day of yoga? Neither seemed very satisfying as far as solutions go. Somehow it all mostly comes together, though. I am physically tired and this seems like a great day to lie in shavasana thus “doing yoga” and not physically exercising. A silent class seems like a great way to lie on my mat in silence and breathe.
I get in the room. The teacher is friendly and very upbeat for 6am. I decide to try a few poses just to see how the yoga works. I let her know I may be lying down most of the time so she doesn’t think I am not following or having a physical issue. I find it easy to follow the poses and I enjoy it.
Then I decide to lie on my mat. I hadn’t realized that because it is a silent class the lights are on bright so people can really see the poses–makes sense but it was distracting for my shavasana. I am also struggling with stilling my thoughts. In the beginning it was so much easier. I could just lie down and let things drift away. I am struggling with thoughts of a client that are hard to let go, weird thoughts of challenges that aren’t real–literally battling imaginary monsters as I drift into a deep relaxed state.
I make it through the hour but somehow miss the illusive “inner peace.” I am noticing my attachment to achieving this and decide this journey inside my head is completely okay, as is the journey of my body in this challenge.
Today I am just glad I made it to yoga and did another day on my mat.
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