Not Going to Make My 100 Days of Yoga Goal

Feb 06, 14 Not Going to Make My 100 Days of Yoga Goal

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It has become clear to me that I am not going to make my goal of 100 yoga classes in 100 days.  The end of the 100 days is about 10 days away and I am down 9 classes.   It was an optimistic goal.  I was on track until I went on a trip.  Then I got caught in the polar vortex for an extra 4 nights in Orlando.    I have counted so many times to see if I could make it.  It is theoretically possible, but not in a way that feels sane or reasonable in my busy life.  I am noticing my attachment and I am allowing failure intentionally–watching it happen–because it feels like the right thing to do.  I don’t have regret, although I still wish it was different.  It is a disappointed dream for me personally as I will be 7-9 classes short of my goal. Now I need a new goal.  I have realized I have the possibility of continuing on and resetting the goal for 125 classes in 125 days or 150 classes in 150 days.  It would give me time to double up some classes on the weekends.  I notice my attachment to this structure of lots of classes and how it makes me feel a little bit special.  Maybe I should let it go and just allow myself to be “normal”.  Someone who goes to yoga sometimes.  I know I have other travel happening soon.  I wonder if I will just get behind again–maybe life will “happen” again and again. I worry about my commitment level.  I don’t have a great track record with exercise.  The daily commitment really has worked for me because there is no opportunity for excuses.  I go daily.  The goal of daily yoga has served my body, my mind, and my spirit.  I don’t like that I don’t trust myself to “do” yoga without a big picture goal.  Or maybe that goal is just helping me do what doesn’t...

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100 Days of Yoga: I Don’t Know What Bleepin’ Day it is!

Jan 10, 14 100 Days of Yoga: I Don’t Know What Bleepin’ Day it is!

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In the last few weeks I have lost count and I don’t seem to be able to keep track of how many days I have been doing my yoga challenge. With the business of December, I don’t have any bandwidth for the information. I try to count–I admit it, sometimes during Shavasana, but I can’t really hold onto the thought. Somewhere between 50 and 70 it just stopped mattering. I am just showing up every day as a practice. It feels a little like free-falling and maybe a little crazy. Yoga is definitely a part of my daily practice. I can’t imagine not having it. I had been “banking” some classes–my goal has been to complete 100 classes in 100 days–and I will be out of town for 6 nights in early January. I had 2 classes “banked” when we had an ice storm and the studio was closed for a day and I missed a class. Then I missed a class the next day because I got there without my yoga top and had to leave. I couldn’t picture doing hot yoga in my sweater. I actually had tears as I drove home. I love yoga and in that moment it felt like a loss. I wonder about being too attached to my yoga practice, but I figure it is early days. I am happy I have found exercise that I love, and happy I like the studio and have a place to practice that gives me joy.  And it does. It is a lovely place. I need to start counting the days. I will need to pay attention in order to make my 100 classes– or I will need to do some yoga while I am at Disneyworld. I am planning to take my mat. I think that practicing some yoga on my own would make it more my own. If I count that practice toward my 100 days of yoga, my goal will be easier. Maybe easier is perfect for me...

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