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Today is Sunday and figuring out how to get to yoga around family activities is a bit challenging. I find a class at 12:30 which means we take 2 cars to church. I could tell Mel really wanted me to go to church with him, so I left right after. Turns out my clothes were in the dryer so I had to come home anyway, and there he was pulling up behind me, so we could have taken one car in the first place. There is still a clumsiness to my scheduling and making my yoga work. I hope this gets more graceful with time. I am letting the clumsiness be okay. We are absorbing a new commitment into our lives and it is a gradual process. Having me exercise 7 times a week is completely new in our relationship. I get to yoga and I get the blocks and strap and put them next to me just in case, but I am deeply tired. I lie down on my mat and stay there the entire hour and 25 minutes. I nap a little, breathe a lot and by the end, I feel refreshed. Lying in shavasana for a whole class is still challenging for my ego. I know I have to do it in order to make it through the challenge when I get tired, but I want to be stronger and able to do more. It is humbling. I have heard this word used several times by teachers and it is deeply true. Not because I feel bad about lying on the mat, but because I wish I didn’t need to. All that said, it is so amazingly pleasant to lie there. I feel like I am melting into the floor. My thoughts are a bit strange, especially when I doze a little and wake up dreaming of video games or weird jarring thoughts. I notice and let them go and focus on breathing again. It is deeply restful. As I get...
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I made it to yoga for an 8am class. I don’t like rushing into yoga but I realized at the last minute I could make this class. I like being 15 minutes early and having my time on my mat before the class starts. I feel excited to be there but it feels like not very long from the 6:30pm class yesterday. I have this feeling that I haven’t had enough recovery time. I had really crazy dreams last night. Nightmare after nightmare. In one I dreamed I got trapped under a tree under water and I couldn’t move. I could imagine Mel trying to save me and I just tried to get to a place of acceptance really fast sending loving thoughts to all my family. It was a super intense dream and I accepted my own death. It seemed very yoga-esque as I let go of my attachment to life and accepted the situation as it was instead of struggling and suffering. I didn’t do all the poses today. I could feel the fatigue in my body. I did a few of them but then spent time lying in shavasana on my mat. I probably did about 1/2 the poses. I started tracking my food and exercise and I was motivated to track more minutes of yoga and I think this was a mistake. I think I didn’t allow it to be okay to be tired. I asked “more” of my body than I needed. I need to be very clear to be gentle with my body and to allow it to do as much yoga as feels right. I don’t need to push beyond that. I felt exhausted after today’s yoga and full of sugar cravings. I have been having these sugar cravings since I started, as if my body is trying to find energy. I ate a bunch of protein today to see if that would help. I also had a glass of wine. I felt kind of yucky...
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The teacher today is less rigorous in terms of correcting postures than the teacher yesterday. Some of the teachers are so rigorous and generous in their correction of poses throughout the class. If they correct even one pose, helping me to have better form, I notice how their words stay with me for days as I try to get to that perfect form in subsequent classes. Some of the teachers do this regularly and some only occasionally. I notice that I prefer rigor. I like to try to get the poses perfect and to stretch into postures that are as correct as possible. I make it through this class today and feel proud that I have made it through a second class where I was able to do most of the poses. I am very sleepy today afterward. I feel deeply tired. I have a medical test on Friday that requires me to go easy on the exercise and I think tomorrow I will take it really slow and try to give my body a...
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I get to the 6:30 am yoga class this morning. I turn in my card to check in and the teacher asks me how it’s going. I said pretty good but I feel like I lie around on my mat a lot. She asks if I have tried the Sweat, Stretch, Unwind class. “Yes, but it was really hard on my knees,” I answer. “Has anyone ever shown you how to make a donut out of a towel? Have I shown you?” she asks. “No, no one has shown me,” I say. She shows me how to wrap my towel around to make a donut for my knees. This is a real game changer for me today. By using my donut, I am able to make it through all the poses and I get a great workout. I feel so proud that I am now doing the whole class. I tell the teacher after the class and she congratulates me. It is nice to share my accomplishment with someone. Yoga is not very chatty. It is a silent practice and I really don’t talk to anyone. I am sore after class and I am really aware of all my muscles all day, but I have a spring in my step and a sense of pride that I have done it. I did my first whole yoga class. I am starting to really love...
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Today was the 6th day of my 21 days of yoga and my 5th class at Moksha Yoga. It was a class that was mostly done on the mat. I was super excited to get there and to lie on my mat and breathe. It just felt so good to get there after missing yesterday. There was more work in this class that required me to sit on my knees for an extended period of time. It is interesting trying to find a position that isn’t going to hurt. I was able to to some of it. I am getting stronger and am noticing muscles I haven’t noticed before in a long time. A friend was watching the boys for me and I felt so grateful for her being able to take them while I went to the class. I really had to allow myself not to rush at the end. I love lying there for a long time just breathing. Is yoga addictive? I am really loving it and can’t wait to go back tomorrow. Day 6 was a great...
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